Weed need!

Well today we had our second HOT day with the temp at 29c,it felt more like 35c with the humidity!So glad the A/C works good.Don't know how i went 43 years without it!I spent 200 last year,(ran all summer) & its still going strong!Waycool!!Gotta say that its paid off,as i live at the top of a very large hill,it's always a relief to come home to my fridge!really!since i do NOT pay Hydro its always on,24/7,!Chillin like a villian!!So my bro gary finds this choc lab yesterday & brings it to my place to watch over it.(his pitty would eat it)Now i have been helpin a friend out by letting him sleep on my couch,& as i do not smoke he went outside,unknowingly letting this stray dog loose!when he comes over at 9 am this morning & i tell him Dog gone dog gone =FREAKS!!Losing his cool like,always,only this time,its undeserved(i think)so Off goes my own bro,& i will have to cut him right out of my life as i cannot let his stress get me going.Having HIV means you have to do things you wouldn't do ordinarily,like eating healthy & excercising & anyone or anybody starts getting you stressed out,you have to turn off your emotions,& cut them from your life.Now i know this sounds cold,& youd be right!but you have to do shit like this if you want to live.Small wonder my fear is dyeing alone.Lookin like its well placed at this time,as i have cut my son & now closest brother out of my life.I am withdrawing from the girl i was seeing.She likes her crack better then me & i am not even going to try & compete with that as i know i do not stand a snowballs chance in hell of keeping her away from that crap,its all over the place these days.Seems like its everywhere you go.Thanks but NO thanks i will stick to my weed!The cost of keeping me supplied in that is getting to much fer me,why can't we make that stuff legal for those who need it?I get a script of sesimet(THC) but still find smoking it alot better then those pills,& i dont get the munchies like i do when i smoke weed.Well this day is ending like it began,me feeling more alone & more depressed then ever.Sure am glad i have a meeting tomorrow afternoon,maybe next week we will go to the beach n have it there,well folks,that's about it fer now,in the meantime peace n love & not wars & walls eh folks!Love your nayber eh!

Peace & LOve NOT Wars & Walls!

So tonight its looking dark outside,sometimes i think its a refection of my heart,as darkness reps evil,there R times when i have very dark thoughts,& i wonder if these R mine or is it an attack from Satan?If u type it out will it become real,or will it be a best seller read by millions?This court thing is BULLSHIT!If i had $$ i wouldnt be getting pushed around like this,I wish MR. Buttazoni was my rep.He would tell it like it is,& i liked that.Sad to say but the canadian legel sytem sucks,unless u have coin or cash,then yer set!depressing or wat?i have to watch i do not fall into to deep of a depression over this,but its hard not to wen your life goes on a holding pattern,waiting for a verdict that will result in many diff possabilities,1 year,hell judge can add as many as he feels like really,this concerns me a great deal,as its common knowledge that i was aquitted for murder & that fact just keeps on screwing me up in ways i never knew,& yet know, &WILL KNOW!OKOK THATS IT FEER TONIGHT FOLKSD,PEACE & LOVE NOT WARS & WALLS ERH FOLKS!

HIV,Single & Its going to RAIN!

As a single perHIV,i have found it almost impossable to date.You think about when you should inform them about your status all the time!Trying to gage the best time to tell others is hard,because you never know just wat they are thinkin about you.I have done about 6 talks on HIV-AIDS & Harm Reduction & methadone awareness ,& most say how brave u r for standing up & telling everyone that u r HiV+,but i am not doing this because i am brave

Court Next Week,here we go again!

While i have been to jail a few times,this is one time i am NOT pleading to cut a deal.Our so called justice system is not the best & is geared for the rich.If u got money ,u can beat anything.This i do not have.so i get wats called legel aid,
Well long story short is that i am going to get fi\ucked over for asking my bank manager to check a cheque.Fraud its not.I got that in the mail,& it was in my name,but ,i took it too the bank manager to see if it was any good in the first place.Guess we'll find out tuesday eh folks~Peace all~

more cam. soldiers die for nothing!!!!

So,this is me,about 4 months ago,my hair is alot shorter now,as i have a court appearence coming up on the 10.I am trusting in GOD to see me through another tough battle,but he has fought for me before & won so i am in good hands.I try & to the right things in life now & am avoiding my old life a that life style.That can be just as addicting as well but peoples dont talk about it.well i am alone these days,with no woman in my sites ,& it seems like all those i meet online are from africa & want me to pay their way here!wish i was in a postion to help more,but when u r on a pension it is usually not enough,thats Y we live check to c heck,can never get ahead @well later peoples,Use a condome eh!I say pull them out now before we lose more !nukes cant be too far behind eh folks?Peace &* love to all eh@

BUPRENORPHINE VS. METHADONE =B WINS!

AS I HAVE BEEN on methadone for 3 years now,it has gave me back my life,but it's time to switch to Buprenorphine.I am at 140 mg of methadone/day & have to come down to 60 before i can switch.I have researched both & B looks like the better alternative by far,as it has no habit or addictive qualities & u only need it every 2 or 3 days making it alot better for traveling or taking a holiday someplace.It just seems to make more sence to me.I guess not everyone will agree,but as i am the addict here,& have been clean for 3 years,i am in the best postion to make these observations.I have .On B. u only have to take a pill every 2 or 3 days!Now i am not sure if its covered or not,but,it sure as hell should be as its usually the poor that deal with addictions or i should say LIVE with addictions,as its an everyday fight for the rest of your life,& sometimes that can be overwhelming eh folks!But just keep the faith,Pray as much as posable.& if u do not think so ,well look it up yerself & tell me then what u think eh!I know U all will conclude the same,that it needs to be pushed into service in sudbury asap!!Well folks,GODBLESS & PEACE &Happiness to all eh!oh ps.remember that safe sex saves lives & the life u save could be your own if your smart & use a condome!Peace !