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Entry for August 31, 2007/Canadians Living in Poverty- Surprising?Not to Me
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As i sit here typing this,i'm watching a doc on tvo about poverty in canada.It's about a single mother raising her 6 kids in ontario,& as i came from that same no in my family,i began to notice many of the same things that happened in their family,was very familier territory,as we had done many of the exact same things & gone through the same emotions.The thing is we were always happy,we were together,& that was the main thing.I didnt know growing up that we were poor.It wasn't untill i was out on my own at 15,that it really hit me,as i had to live in rundown places to afford the rent.I know what its like to go with-out a mean & have eating alot of pasta in my time.But we were happy when we were together,& didnt notice the run down places that were always too small for the six of us.When one spring morning we woke up & our place had 2 feet of water we made a game out of it & had a grand ol time!!Floating on different things,Avast ye sailers,man the life boats" capn,we canna fin da leeeek sur!loljk!!so ,here i am today,living in housing,not were i grew up,but still,they all have that same type of build eh!Rent is geared to income,so i pay 150/month.I make 1,000/month.so now i have 850- 200,food=650- 300=meds=350-200-oz-pot=150 -cabble,web=50-phone=0.!!!!So as you can see,i just manage to get by.Its hard to buy fresh vegs & fruit as its more expensive,but i do the best i can with what i have,& i am happy & gratefull for everything the Lord has given me.ii have lived on 10,000/yr for along time.Food has gone up many times & yet my checks havent.but i am ok,i know that compared to the rest of the world,I am a very Rich man!in canadian standards i am a very poor man.By my own standards,i think i am an average joe canadian guy,just trying to do the best he can with what he's got,keeping hope & faith that things will be ok,just for today!Peace n Love not Wars n walls eh!

Hard being HIV+ & looking for Love~~~

So today went by kinda slow,being all alone can suck alot sometimes,well most of the time if your single,some of the time if your with someone,as sometimes you need to be alone,just to sort out your head & thoughts that swirl around in your brain.I fell in lust/love 2 today!I am always gettingthese emails saying that they need me as they want to transfer millions into my bank.They just keep on comin!man,i coulda transfered about 75 million by now!geeze maybe there really is a need for millionairs to transfer large amounts of cash!!lol ya right!Well,i sure wish Christians would show the love they are supposed to ,we would be so much better off.I hate war & the war machinery,that drives our economys.Y can't we base our economys on different things?Say Peace?I keep thinking of this planet filled with loving peoples,working together for the greater good of us all.No more shootings...We are just wasteing resources on trying to kill each other off.We need something tragic to happen to bring us all together,& its a shame that something terrable has to occure before we start to treat each other with the love & respect that each of us deserves?nice to have dreams & hope for a better tomorrow,I just wish it was here today!Peace n love NOT wars n walls !!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Nice out with the temp at 21c/ Genotype Test

So ya today is perfect out & staying inside blogging is noty what i want to be doing but is what i am doing nways.I am on my way to get my genotype test results described for me at the haven program at laurention hosp. they do your blood weork every 3 months to track your HIV Progress help alot of peoples with counseling & other cool stuff like if your losing weight they will hook you up with some ensures or resource to help you keep your weight up,something that peoples take for granted.Betty-Ann is the nurse that i will be discuyssing this with me thinks.Well i will tell ya'll what happens & untill then ,Keep the Faith,Live,Learn,Love,Laugh.Safe sex saves lives so save a life today,the life you save could be your own ,if your smart & wear a condom!!!!!!!!Peace n Love NOT Wars n Walls eh folks!!!!!!!!!

SAFE SEX SAVES LIVES,SO SAVE A LIFE TODAY EH!~

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Just fer today,How i started Useing Coke & Cory Dies From HPV

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Just for Today,Clean & almost serene,How i started to Use Coke 0 minutes ago

So,on my 27 birthday i had a little party,& noticed 2 of my friends in the corner doin sumpthin different so i went over & asked wats up guys?"party harty" want some?"" sure "i said ,not even knowing what i was gettin into .Bud said "stick yer arm out"which i did & pulled it back when i noticed the needle he had in his other hand."Relax your gonna love this"& so slowly i stuck it back out & hardly noticed the pin prick of the needle,& then 15 seconds later i started to feel the rush & ring I had heard so many times before,but only untill now did i know what they meant."I'm Fucked" i said,with a nervous smile & they laughed.I had a hardon like never before,i was very turned on & the rush & feeling was so different & pleasureable i knew right away i was fucked,as i just wanted another one to get back that rush again as soon as it was gone as it only lasted for 5 minutes.This is why coke can be an expensive habit,as you need a "hit"every 5 -25 mintutes & the rush doesnt last that long &when you are comin down,you start to 'jones"=craving ,& it doesn't go away untill you do another hit,or,manage to get a valium or 3 to ease your withdrawel symptoms.These days coke is cut with speed & /or heroin & a large number of other shitr like suger & or anything else that will fluff up yer blow to make more money for yourself & your habit.So i knew right away i was fucked,as the pleasure was so intense.For the next 15 years i was lossed in the world of hard coreaddiction.Sex,drugs & rock n roll right?Isn't that what the television & movies glorify?ya ,it is.So anyways i am clean now since i lossed my daughter Cory in 04 to HPV.I told myself that if i could stay clean through this,I could stay clean through anything.She was my inspiration to stay clean,as she needed me with her at her side."Dad,"she said, "You don't have to stay here & can go wherever & whenever you want too eh""I am exactly where i want to be princess" & will be untill the end" & when she started losing her hair,i went & got it shaved off myself(had very long hair)She was very proud & happy that i would go that far just to make her feel good she said.It was the hardest thing to lose such a precious gift,but i am gratefull for the time we did have together,& look forward to being with her again when my time comes.That wont be for awhile yet though folks.I am in the best shape of my life.I have lossed so many friends & family you would think you would get used to them,but you never do.You try & do the best you can with what you got,Live,learn,love & laugh,alot.Peace n Love NOT Wars n Walls eh folks!!!

Today was nice out,summer is almost over!

So today was nice out with the temp at 28c,I'm glad there was a nice breeze to help keep things cool.Meeting went OK,nothing new there.I am on the lookout for some smoke,but its going to be a tight month already with me having to payout a buck fifty to my lawyer just to get out of signing in 1 day less making it 1/wk & no curfew.Oh well such is life eh folks?have to take the good & bad,not like we have any choice in the matter eh folks?I watched the secret & they try to say that we make our own beds,which is true up too a point i guess.The lazy days of summer are almost gone & fall is almost upon us.This is my favorite time of year,with the colours & cooler temps.